Concern) The helplessness and ambiguity of reality

Reality feels powerless, I lack confidence, and my physical strength doesn't keep up. I feel like I'm gradually losing my confidence in life and the vitality to live.

So, I have been studying in my own way up until now.

I studied to develop myself further, but after studying, I wanted to break away a bit from my own rewards and reality theory. Also, since I continue to live as a housewife, whether I study hard or do household chores diligently, I devote myself entirely to my children and husband for their convenience, and no one expresses gratitude, shows kindness, or offers support in any way.

There is nothing around that congratulates me or rewards me for the studying I have done.

Do they naturally think that living power is for their own benefit? During times like this, I really feel helpless about life, and sometimes I wonder how I will live in the future, questioning whether the way I am living now is right.

I'll be out all day, working tirelessly until night, feeling exhausted and in pain, and I can't even earn money.

It feels very overwhelming and vague.

So, I feel like they treat me as someone even more lacking...

That thing that can't even handle social life makes me feel depressed again.

What kind of joy can bring me more happiness and a sense of comfort?