(Question) My interpersonal relationships and daily life are all difficult because of my bipolar disorder. Is there no solution?

When I was young, my parents always fought in front of me.

He would throw things in front of me and swear at me, and I grew up seeing that.

I have mood swings, perhaps because of my childhood.

I don't remember exactly, but the first time my mood swings got worse was

It's been like this since I was in elementary school.

When I was in elementary school, my friends would ignore me or

When I asked my mom to buy something for me that all my friends had,

I remember being so angry at my mom for refusing to buy it for me.

I usually laugh and joke around with my friends,

Whenever something doesn't go my way or a variable arises, I suddenly feel my mood swinging like a roller coaster.

As time went by, even after I became a middle school student, high school student, and college student, it got worse and worse and showed no signs of getting better.

In the end, because of my strange personality, I have no friends left around me right now.

So, I don't have any friends to call on my days off, or to travel with when I get married.

It's all my fault

I just dated without any friends

There were a lot of problems while dating.

If the other person doesn't do what I want,

Whenever my mood swings suddenly hit, I showed symptoms of bipolar disorder to the other person.

So, all the male friends I've met so far

You have bipolar disorder, so please go to the hospital and get treatment.

I've always had relationships that ended badly, hearing bad things like, "I can't handle your personality. If you keep doing that, you'll definitely fail later."

So I had a difficult breakup with my long-time boyfriend.

I recently met a new boyfriend, and this time I tried to hold back and not let my bipolar symptoms show at all costs.

But I don't think this can be achieved through effort.

I feel really good when I go on a regular trip with my boyfriend, make plans, and eat delicious food.

Every time that happens, I ask my boyfriend, "Is he in a good mood today? Is something good happening?"

I didn't really have anything good to say

Then suddenly I feel depressed for no reason.

Then, you will be less talkative and your facial expressions will become less manageable.

From then on, my boyfriend started to watch my every move again.

"Why are you like that all of a sudden? You look upset. Did I say something wrong?" he asked, looking at me.

I also feel really sorry towards my boyfriend. I shouldn't have made him feel this way, but I keep making the same mistake over and over again.

(Question) My interpersonal relationships and daily life are all difficult because of my bipolar disorder. Is there no solution?

Excessive sleeping for long periods of time during bipolar disorder

Some days I wake up early and have trouble sleeping, and that's one of my symptoms.

I wasn't originally that lazy, but these days I don't want to wake up and I keep denying reality.

I've been worrying a lot about the future lately, so I feel like I'll be in trouble again when I wake up.

But even so, the day before going to work, I have a hard time falling asleep.

I had a hard time getting to work in the morning because I was so exhausted.

These days, I can't even concentrate on my work.

When I work, I keep thinking about other things, and my work efficiency drops.

Recently, I've been getting a lot of scolding from my boss, asking me what's going on and why I'm handling things this way. I don't know why I'm doing this either.

I'm originally an active person, so I don't really like staying at home.

These days, I don't want to do anything. I just want to lie at home and not think about anything. I just want to sleep like that.

I don't think it's sleep deprivation, but why am I so lethargic and exhausted? People around me are worried, but nothing seems to be changing.

These days, even when I talk to my boyfriend, I get excited and talk faster.

I'm afraid that if I continue like this, I'll develop a speech impediment.

I think I've forgotten how to speak calmly.

Even though I used to love eating so much, I feel like my appetite is decreasing.

I think I'll just gain weight and waste money if I eat this anyway, so I might as well not eat it, but then I impulsively buy it in bulk online.

So my boyfriend asked me what was going on that made me so stressed out that I bought this thing and that I was really weird these days.

Whenever I hear things like, "Shouldn't you go to the hospital and get treatment?" or "If I were here, I would control it, but now that we're apart, you can't control it," I often get dizzy and wonder, "Why did I end up like this?"

And a while ago, my boyfriend went to his parents' house.

It was my routine to call before going to bed.

For some reason, he didn't call me back then.

Until that happens, I want to tell my boyfriend I love him and I want to see him soon.

We had a sweet conversation about going out to eat something delicious this weekend.

I swore at my boyfriend for not calling me.

Why are you dating me? I thought you would call me, so why don't you?

My boyfriend said he couldn't do it because his parents were sleeping in the living room and he was worried it would be noisy.

I said I'm really sorry, it's not that I didn't do it because I didn't want to hear your voice.

I couldn't control my emotions when I heard that.

It was such a trivial thing, but I couldn't control my emotions.

My boyfriend finally called, and as soon as I picked up, I yelled at him. He apologized, but I couldn't stop.

Then we got tired of fighting and fell asleep together and decided to talk about it tomorrow.

The next day, my boyfriend was so hurt that he asked me why I was like that and why I couldn't control myself.

But I felt stable again within a day, or rather within a few hours. I apologized.

But the other person was already hurt, so it seemed like they couldn't get over it.

I was clearly in a good mood, but when I saw my boyfriend in a bad mood, I suddenly started getting incredibly angry.

So, didn't I tell my boyfriend that I was sorry for the fight we had yesterday?

Just let it go. If you apologize, I'll let it go. You were really angry.

My boyfriend got hurt again there.

I can't control my emotions like this, and I suddenly feel good and then angry.

I have bipolar disorder and I start screaming uncontrollably. What should I do about it?

Because of this kind of personality in the past, I lost many precious relationships.

I feel like I'm going to lose someone precious to me again because of this bipolar disorder.

But I can't stop this impulsive feeling. I want to stop too.

And then a while ago, I was having a meal with my family.

We definitely ate well and had a good conversation

But I had a difference of opinion with my father, so we were talking quietly.

Suddenly, another emotional change occurred.

So, without realizing it, I ended up yelling at my dad.

I regret it now. I'm crying because I regret it.

If you don't do something you'll regret in the first place, why doesn't it work out?

I know going to the hospital is the first priority, but

I'm also afraid that there will be side effects from taking medication.

Is there anyone among you who has overcome bipolar disorder who has cured symptoms like mine?

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(Question) My interpersonal relationships and daily life are all difficult because of my bipolar disorder. Is there no solution?