Panic Disorder

After experiencing a stroke, I feel afraid when taking the elevator after being discharged, as if it might fall. I am also afraid to cross the pedestrian bridge because I worry that the sturdy concrete bridge might collapse. Additionally, I cannot ride escalators. When I asked my doctor about the reason, I was told it is a type of panic disorder and was advised to undergo psychiatric treatment. I received psychiatric treatment for about a year. Initially, I took medication at the lowest dose, then increased the dosage once a month, and after five months, I was using the highest dose.

I continued practicing crossing the pedestrian bridge simultaneously. When I kept updating the doctor on my training progress, the doctor said that the patient's own training is important. However, even when increasing the medication dosage, I did not feel any effect from the medication at all. I asked the doctor why that was, and he said that the patient's willpower is more important than the medication. I also planned to borrow a little of the medication's power and strengthen my willpower to overcome the current situation. Since I cannot feel any effect from the medication at all, I decided to stop the treatment, not to be afraid, and to live without fear. I wonder if I should have received more treatment.