My story of overcoming bipolar disorder that was difficult for me

After experiencing a major event in my previously smooth life, I went through a lot of mental struggles. I want to share my story of how I managed to overcome my mental health issues, including bipolar disorder, and how I practiced mind control to get through it.

 

Even people who never thought they would receive psychiatric diagnoses like bipolar disorder ended up being diagnosed. I used to think that if I couldn't sleep more than 7 hours, I was lacking sleep, and since I was lacking sleep, I thought, "Today probably won't be a good day." However, as insomnia gradually took hold of my life, bipolar disorder also appeared. I didn't even know exactly what bipolar disorder was. I just thought it might be a symptom of mood swings that I was experiencing alone, based on my own thoughts.

 

I used to think so, but now I am someone who understands bipolar disorder well. Experiencing bipolar disorder naturally led me to research and become interested in it. Insomnia was triggered by family issues. My family's reckless business ultimately went wrong, which caused me a lot of psychological shock. Unspoken feelings of betrayal, wounds, anger, phone calls from acquaintances, visits to my home, threats that were not really threats, and relentless pressure—all of these were not easy for me to handle. How could I handle them easily? I have lived an ordinary life. I smile well, am talkative, sleep soundly, and I feel happiness in simple things like a cup of coffee.

 

Insomnia started so badly that I couldn't sleep, and I felt like I was going crazy. Some people say they can go about their daily lives and release energy even without sleep, but I guess I wasn't one of those. I suffered quite a bit, and my body had a hard time accepting it. I was someone who needed enough sleep. As I continued to stay awake and unable to sleep, my mental state began to deteriorate. Everyone knows that when the body becomes weak and exhausted, mental strength also weakens, and a person becomes dazed and foggy. The focus in the eyes becomes blurry, and it's hard to focus properly.

 

That's how I ended up with bipolar disorder, which I didn't even realize I had. Bipolar disorder... People like coworkers or those I occasionally meet in society don't really understand it. They probably don't even suspect that I might have bipolar disorder, but close friends seem to notice. Maybe they sensed that I was acting abnormally compared to before. I didn't realize that version of myself. Perhaps because I am a calm person, it was more noticeable.

 

My 모습 of listening to music alone while drinking coffee, suddenly getting angry and throwing a glass, not even cleaning up the broken glass, just staring out the window and lost in thought, sinking endlessly into depression. The betrayals and wounds of the past filling my body make me feel uncontrollable. Then, I receive a call from a close friend, and I feel scared as I see myself smiling brightly and chatting happily. I wonder why I am like this and feel that things might really go wrong, so I talk to my friend and start counseling and treatment.

 

I think I felt more depression than mania that lifted my mood. Maybe because I have a calm personality, I tend to retreat into a cave rather than vent... The person I used to be, who was positive, now only has negative thoughts, and I cry instead of smiling. Even when someone talks to me, I can't concentrate, I zone out, and tears come to my eyes...

 

I am currently overcoming and moving forward. Insomnia, depression, and even anger inside my body are all being managed. I am gradually returning to the time when I could fully enjoy a cup of coffee and feel happiness. Wasn't it said that time heals everything? As the bad memories from the past gradually fade and I begin to accept the emotional pain I endured, I find myself gaining the will to overcome. So, I start my day by playing meditation music as soon as I wake up.

 

 

 

After waking up in the morning, I close my eyes, meditate, and make a vow to myself to start the day feeling refreshed and alert. It's my personal time to motivate myself. Additionally, I take a walk every day.

 

 

I go to a pleasant riverside path, bring my favorite coffee, and take my time walking slowly, spending time for myself. I always look up at the sky. When I see the tall, blue sky, the worries I have under the sky sometimes feel insignificant. In those moments, I always make a promise to myself: I have a duty to cherish and love myself. I tell myself not to blame myself and to take care of myself.

 

 

If there are people struggling with bipolar disorder, I want to encourage you. You will overcome it slowly, so don't be discouraged.