Suffering from pain that is not pain due to stroke sequelae.

I am suffering from pain that is not just pain as a result of stroke sequelae. When I was receiving training to adapt to high places at the rehabilitation hospital, I thought this was a temporary disability and that I was gradually improving, so I expected to recover soon. Generally, most of the stroke sequelae, such as walking, have returned to normal, so I finished my hospitalization at the rehabilitation hospital after about two years and returned home. Since I have not had to use high roads or elevators, about six months have passed like that.

One day in London, I found myself in a situation where I had to take the elevator. I could manage to take it with my companions, but when I was alone, I was afraid that the elevator might fall. About a month later, I had the chance to see my primary care physician and asked about it. He said it was a type of panic disorder related to residual effects of insomnia, and that I needed to undergo psychiatric treatment alongside it.

So, I started receiving treatment at a local psychiatric hospital. During the first two weeks, they seemed to keep the medication dosage minimal to observe the situation. However, when there was no improvement, they gradually increased the dosage, and after three months, it was raised to the maximum dose.

Even after about three months of treatment, there was no improvement, so I practiced crossing the pedestrian bridge or riding the elevator alone twice a day on my own. It seemed to be getting a little better. When I told the doctor about the results, he advised me to continue practicing on my own like that.

The medication's effectiveness was minimal, and it was determined that I was able to overcome my issues solely through my own practice. Additionally, even if it was a bit inconvenient, I could cross the crosswalk instead of crossing the pedestrian bridge, and I could take the elevator with other passengers if I waited a little longer. I decided to resolve everything this way and also stopped treatment at the psychiatric hospital. Even now, due to the aftereffects of a stroke, I experience some discomfort, but everything is manageable when I go out with others.

But even now, it's strange to think that the heavy footbridge might collapse, and just like the old saying about superstitions, the thought that the elevator might fall is something I simply cannot understand, no matter how much I claim it to be a residual effect of a stroke.